But I lie
Only to save
Myself my insight
You're just like a wave
And I love the motion
And the constant thrill
But I do get nauseous after
Taking that pill
About you
Because of me
Do I want you or
Want to be free?
And I want you
But don't want to hurt
I anticipate you
Just like dessert
When feelings are real
And contemplation takes control
Should I stop?
Letting the ball roll?
And I fear you in dark
But see you in light
I love and I hate
And I hate this fight
Or with you does
Freedom take place?
Should I open my heart and let you
Fill the space?
I can't remember
Ever being this way
I haven't been the same from
December to May
And I try so hard
But know I am not ready
To put my heart on my sleeve
And be tied up like spaghetti
I don't know love
But I know myself
I know I can get off track
And get splattered in filth
Either way
I need to know
Am I walking too fast?
Or running too slow?
I live my life
In a rut
Sometimes like heaven
Sometimes abrupt
It's never the way
That I intend
But feelings aside
I was never taught to pretend of
How the world goes
Around and around
In mystery we search
We are never found
It seems in every rose
You'll find a bee
And sometimes I feel
Like that bee is me
Or the dirty sock
Missing its match
With the many stitched holes
That the dog will catch
Well at least I am by
The seat of my pants
Instead of living in structure
Like army ants
I can live in tomorrow
But need to enjoy now
If someone can explain
To me how
And I take it like a cat with a flee
And it maybe that I can
As long as they accept me
Either Way I am